What would you think of me from this description?

You sound a lot like me when I was young. You need to realize that you are a beautiful person that deserves the best that life has to offer. Keep getting to know what makes you happy, and keep doing that. In time you will grow into a confident woman. Don't ever depend on others to make you feel good about yourself, because they will often fail you. It needs to come from within. Sometimes it takes getting older for it to happen.